I just wanna thank u all very much... This is why I'm glad I'm a Misfit and when my dogfight days end some day, but not soon, I will end a Misfit... I've made some great friends here ... 

So here it is... My wife had our daughter July 22nd. She had one migraine headache that has spanned now for 23 consecutive days. It doesn't go away when she goes to sleep. She wakes up and it's already there and she goes to sleep with it too. It doesn't go away.. I forced her to go to the hospital against her will. Due to the fact that she just had an epidural from giving birth they thought it could be what they call a fluid shift . That's where the hole in the spinal column from the needle doesn't close and spinal fluid leaks slowly into the blood stream.  Then they would go in and physically patch it with what they call a blood patch. So they did a CT, or cat scan, but it came back normal so that wasn't the problem. So they ordered an MRI of her body from the waist on up. The result s really fucked me up. Excuse my language. This will probably be the only time I curse here for lack of better word. He found what they are calling a white non specific mass on the back, left, lower side of her brain. She is 28 and we just had a baby plus we have a 2year old and my stepson in our household. My faith is truly stretched to its limits. They don't know what it is. It could be nothing, but after having this 1 headache for this many consecutive days it's hard to think it's nothing. We have an upcoming appointment w a neurosurgeon soon. It's quite nerve rackin.  Not fair to our kids if it is something. They are leaning towards a central nervous system disease but that's why we have this upcoming appt, because they don't know and he is a specialist . I feel like I'm dying inside right now. Almost makes everything else right now seem irrelevant. She is my best friend and love of my life. I can't do this without her. I really hope the MRI machine is a shitbag liar and is wrong. Look, I'm 36 and have put every known illicit substance and chemical known to man into my body time and time again. I've only been sober for two years. All the harm I've done to myself and others over the course of my life makes me wonder if this is some kind of payback and karma. Do what ever you want to me , but hitting me where it hurts most is what's happened. I just really hope it's nothing and just a scare. She is acting as if nothing is going on but I know her better than anyone and her eyes tell me different  She is worried and scared to get bad news when we go to this appointment in the coming days. It just sucks. I'm not one to really jump the gun and try to remain optimistic, but I know life hits ya when u least expect it and the military has taught  me one thing for sure. Hope for the best but prepare for the worst. Why not me, why her. She never did the crap to anyone or herself that I've done. She's a good girl and doesn't deserve anything bad to come her way. I'm just really scared to get bad news but keep telling myself it could be nothing.  So there it is . I may be distant from the forum or game for a bit but at least u all know why now. I love all of y'all like  a great big illegitimate family. 

SORRRRRY FOR THE USE OF CRUDE LANGUAGE. Just my true feelings.

Thank u again for the prayers. Sorry to put a damper on things. I have had some phone calls and texts from some of y'all and wishes in the ace hole it truly means the world. U all know who ya are and got a brother for life  thank you. 

Just trying to do what ever I can to keep positive and optimistic for my family. It's tough to not think about what it could be.

Stay positive BULLET, keep ur chin up. Stay focused for your kids.

You know that we are all with you as much as can be in a group like this. Our prayers are coming your way at all hours, hoping for the best. Anything i can do you call.

Well Misfits...I hope you dont mind Swop stopping by....When I read Bullet's post...it broke my heart....I want you to know....that I, Swop, will be praying hard for God's perfect will. For healing and for strength and for "a joy that surpasses all your hearts and minds by Christ Jesus." We dont always know all of the reasons why bad things happen but we can get a small glimpse of an idea. I'm reminded of Job, Stephen, Joseph, to name a few....people who went through terrible tragedies that were not, in a majority of a sense, a result of their own doing. Yet they "overcame".. I say this, Bullett, not to put aside the emotions, the feelings and extreme hurt you are facing. Cause those characters in the Bible I referenced still felt that same pain and it didnt go away even when they knew the reason they faced what they were facing even after they overcame as well.

Just know that I'm praying for you Bullet. All I can suggest is stay close to God cause I personally believe "without Him, we are nothing."

I hope this little message of mine encouraged you Bullet...If not, at least know the heartfelt intent that was meant behind the message given by me.

tSwopCaml

Our thoughts are with you in more ways than words can ever express.

Hey Bullet, I know that I'm new here and I know we don't know each other, but I still feel awful for what's going on with you and your family. I don't know why we get dealt the cards we do in life, nobody does. You have my best wishes and I am not really the praying sort, but I did pray for you last night. Hope you can stay strong and get through this. God bless you and your wife and your family.

Steve

Stay strong brother bullet

Hang in there Bullet.

After reading the struggles sir Bullet and his family are going through, it really makes one happy for what they have. My families thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in this time of need. Take care and god speed brother Bullet.

Don't know what to say or where to start ,sat here now for nearly an hour trying to find some words of comfort for you brother Bullet ,but nothing we can say will help much at a time like this. Rest assured ,friend , that all our thoughts and hopes go with you. My religious views ,as my name may suggest,differs from most on here but my prayers for you and yours are just are fervent and heart felt. Keep strong ,take one day at a time and may the blessing of my Lord and Lady be upon you. So mote it be.
BLESSED BE! Pagan.

*[M]VonHulk wrote: Stay positive BULLET, keep ur chin up. Stay focused for your kids.

What Hulk said,my thoughts and prayers are with you brother.

I'm gunna post this again so whoever wants it...here it is

Brother Bullet,
I have been struggling to find the right words to say to help, and I have realized there are none.
I offer you my most sincere best wishes and prayers for you and your family.
Fragmental

Positive thoughts and prayers being sent your way bullet I'm so sorry for your stress and truly hope it's nothing.

Hey bullet, hope everything is well.

Great evening game. [M]'s o plenty.

Well..'an update on my internet issue...but first.


Bullet.'thank you for posting the update. It gives me something specific for which to pray. I don't know you or your family well, but I do have uneasy feelings. I can't begin to imagine how you're feeling as I'm not in your shoes. Once huge thing I've noticed about the Misfits is that we share each other's joys, sadness, failures, successes. The Misfits, in my opinion see closer to each other than members of any other squad...I want you to know that you and your family well continue to be part of the discussion I have with God each and every day.

The internet...for me has been a source of frustration. The technician came out twice. A cable was replaced the first time with worse speeds. I The modem was replaced the second time. I did a speed test that night with the computer connected via the hard line..I actually got 8-9 mbps. The next night, I was back to 1-2 mbpsv(I should be pulling 12). Today, I bought I new router. There was no change. The computer connected via hard line tonight was barely over 1 mbps. Idk why the speed is so low. So another call to the provider tomorrow. I'm out of commission until this is fixed..else I be an undesirable lagger.

Great late game with the B Zerker. Comet came in late.

Great game Von, bzerkbzerk, Comet.
Fist pic shows one of many
Hulk Smashes sent at my base, that finished the game. (Since he couldn't fly there)

FOX#1 [BB] wrote: Great game Von, bzerkbzerk, Comet.
Fist pic shows one of many
Hulk Smashes sent at my base, that finished the game. (Since he couldn't fly there)

Great to see you sir Fox, always fun.

*[M]VonHulk wrote:

FOX#1 [BB] wrote: Great game Von, bzerkbzerk, Comet.
Fist pic shows one of many
Hulk Smashes sent at my base, that finished the game. (Since he couldn't fly there)

Great to see you sir Fox, always fun.

Likewise sir Von.

GG Coop, nice flying with you brother and thx again for switching to even up the teams

Haven't dropped in here in a while so Hello to all the Misfits and good day!

Was just in a protect the zep game,dude called "20 1/4" parked on reds runway with MICHAEL KANE entering game,I took him out but not b4 MIKE crashed a few times,watch out 4 this guy, REAL KNOB!!!!!!!!



Told MICHAEL I would mention it here,in case any1 wants to help the M.O.M's teach him a few manners !

Brother Bullet, the Ware family wants you to know that your family is in our thoughts and prayers. You are a good man, don't blame yourself, this isn't anyone's fault. Stay positive, things will work out.
-b

Good long one.

Alright Alright!!! Flip flop Friday has arrived! Let them toes breath Misfits! And don't worry about the stink! Just past Hulk in the hallway at the ace hole! Take a wild guess where he was headed!

Happy Friday!

I've been trying to find the words for a few days now Bullet, but nothing I type seems to be adequate.
So I'll just say I've prayed for her and will continue to, I send positive thoughts throughout the day, and I see her everytime I look at my wife and just hope for the best. I bitterly regret not being able to do more - I can only imagine how this must feel.

Just imagine the relief you're going to feel when she comes out of this okay

ok misfits I have spent my whole life wondering what was going on and I even came to a conclusion that I know what is going on and then I join the misfits and I'm not sure about a darn thing for instance where does no pants day come in why was I not notified I don't even like pants I could handle it no pants day I don't think most of the Misfits could handle it no I am just wondering where do you get this stuff is there a book are you keeping me out of the matrix ok I love my brothers and I love my sisters squadron but I would actually appreciate it if you would tell me the next time it's no pants day! Thank you